When I'm gone from your life, will you regret or rejoice?
Was I a good girlf?
I hope i was..
I hope when i am gone, you are smiling.
I hope when i am gone, you are rejoicing.
I hope when i am gone, you are happy.
I hope when i am gone, you are still feeling the same.
I hope when i am gone, you still continues your life like how it should be.
I hope when i am gone, you are not depress.
I hope.. I hope..
How noble all the above are..
But deep down i actually hope
these ways..
I hope when i am gone, you are sad over my departure.
I hope when i am gone, you woke up in the middle of the night, missing me.
I hope when i am gone, you dreamt about me when you sleep.
I hope when i am gone, you feel depress over it.
I hope when i am gone, the smile on the face becomes a fake one.
I hope when i am gone, your life becomes a mess.
I hope when i am gone, you miss my presence every single second.
Though the second "hoping" is very selfish, but, which girl won't want it like that? Which girl won't hope that the boy miss her when she's gone from his life? There's a lot of things i hoped, but it's only a fantasy...
Actually, i just hope you are happy every moment, your sadness breaks my heart, I don't know since when i fall in luv with you.. When you were always there for me when i am sad, happy, angry, emoing, crying, laughing, smiling, blushing and all my other emotions, you were there to share with me. When i am have success in choir you were there to share the joy with me, when i can't finish writing my english mid-year paper you were there to worry with me, when i was being accused by mummy, you were there to feel frustrated with me, every moment you were there with me. But, why are we drifting now? :(
Do you know I hate the me i am now?
Do you know I hate putting up fake smiles when I'm actually crying behind the screen?
Can you still feel it when i cry?
Can you still feel it after i put extremely lots of smilies in msn when i cried?
I acted, like a fool, in exchange of your smile and happiness.
I never regret to act like a professional in front of you, it feels silly to me, but as long as the prize is your smile, everything is worth it.
You hate the feeling of guiltiness, i hate it as much too, when i know my sadness make you guilty i feel guilty too! Cux.. Never once did it crossed my mind that i want to make you sad/guilty/unhappy. Do you still remember the first time we meet? The time we went to vivo? When nutnut and arull is behind us and we are facing the window on the seat? Remember we both cried(you were holding back your tears)? That was the first time i feel your sadness baby. That time i was puzzled, why is there an aching feeling in my heart when i see you so sad. My brain can't remember things well baby, but i had always remember how sad you look back then, and it was because of what i said :/
Whenever i walk back home from school, i remember when we used to met there once, and you were so tired, furthermore i didn't even allow you to touch me at all. When i walk back home now, i remember that time when you walked me home, all you asked from me was a teddy bear hug, and i didn't gave you, I'm really a bad girlf right?
Do you remember the songs i dedicated to you, and the two songs i sent you?
Here's one more, i just hope you like it(:
Victoria Acosta - Could this be love
Wake up this morning,
just sat in my bed.
8a.m first thing in my head,
is a certain someone, who's always on my mind.
He treats me like a lady in every way,
he smiles and warms me through out the day.
Should i tell him "i love you"?
Wish i knew how to say~
[Chorus]
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?
The way he looks,
so deep in my eyes.
Our hearts so warm,
I just want cry.
And he's so hardworking,
he wants to be someone.
Should I tell him that "i love you"?
What if he doesn't says it too?
I'm getting nervous, what should i do?
[Chorus]
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?
Will it be my turn?
Two hearts beating together as one.
No more loneliness.
Only love, laughter and fun.
[Chorus]
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?
Could this be love that i feel?
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That's all for the 3rd song dedication. Three months, three songs dedication, every time to tell a different message(;
Do you remember that two days when we were sitting at woodlands cc?
The same two times that i suddenly became emo? Millions of thoughts were going through my mind, but the first time, i just tell you i was too tired hence throwing a temper, surprisingly you believed my "lie". Don't be angry with me for lying, cux i don't want you to be sad again..
The second time, you made the face and i laughed it off, you're really cute(:
But i actually hope you forced me say out what was in my mind :/
Remember 3rd July i hugged you when you came? Not jux cux i miss you, but also cux i scared i will lose you ><
