Finally this torturous day is going to end..
14July.. It was supposed to be our 3rd month and we should be celebrating it, but today, writing the date was so hard, i keep tremble whenever i write this date on my worksheets. But still i got to a conclusion, i'm letting you go now. Read properly, is
now. I want my baby boy back in the future, 5 months later, a happy boy. By then, hopefully i'm more matured, and won't bring you tears anymore. 5 months, i'm willing to wait, i can promise you my feelings will not fade, but i'm not sure about yours.
Boy, do you remember? Some day before our 2nd month we had a quarrel, that time you keep wanted to let go of me, and we made a promise. I said i will let you have a period of time to stabilize your poly life, and within this period i won't contact you/pester you. I tried my best to recall how you replied to that, but i can't.. Somehow you rejected that idea i guess? But this time, i don't know.. Maybe you really don't want me le, but i chose to lie to myself that this time will be just like that promise, we will be back after your exam..
I want to see you smile for real this time round, not feeling guilty anymore. I guess i really don't have time to mourn over this break up stuff le.. i wanted to cry, but tears couldn't come out.. Tomorrow will be the choir audition to select people to take part in the ABRSM. ABRSM and SYFCJ is what all singers will want to participate in, i am no exceptional, i want to take part, and i don't want to be rejected in the first round of audition.
[11:40pm] I will do well for the next 5 months ahead, just like how you will(:
