*Humphx*
Hate it when i saw you praising another girl..
*grumbles*
...But i guess i should keep quiet about it and juz bitch about it here bahx..
Afterall, this is my blog, my say.
By your character, i know you won't confront me after you read it.
I don't know is whether you don't care or what.
Btw, i gave up trying to be the first to contact you everyday...
I msged you, you only reply after a few msgs + a few missed calls,
it makes me feels like i am so despo!
This feeling gross me out, and makes me feel like i wanna puke.
When you finally reply to my msg, and we start chatting,
i never complain that you reply so slow.
Instead i treasure every msg that you are able to send me.
But after awhile, you stop replying.
And i will be so dumb, waiting for hours for your reply.
Saw you online in Facebook.
"Pig!" Said by me.
"harlow!" Said by him.
":/"Said by me.
"yeaa halo"Said by me.
"look at your phone :@"Said by me.
-Silence, no reply again-
Am i really too despo for your accompany that you are suffocating now?
If it is, i promise i won't msg you after that anymore,
unless you msg me first..
Nich, although he treats he studies more important than me,
(Which you are also doing it right now)
but he will still msg me, no matter where he is.
He will also bother to tell me when he can't msg me, so i won't worry!
I'm not trying to make you sad by saying all these..
But sad to say, i do compare my boyf with my exs.
Sometimes i'm already used to boyf msging me,
i can't help but start to panic when you suddenly stop msging.
I love it when my boyf wish me good morning, in the morning,
it's really sweet to see you boyf say "morning baby" to you.
but i know you can't, you always wake up in the noon,
*sighs* even though it's like that, i still hope that you'll be the first to msg me everyday..
I juz hope to see you msg,
see you taking your own initiative to msg me first.
Not wait till 5pm in the noon, realise the despo-for-msg girl is suddenly gone,
then you msg me and ask me if i enjoyed my day.
What if one day i'm really gone?
What if one day something happens to me and i can't msg you?
Will you be panic and scare?
Will you contact me like how i contact you, worrying that something bad happens?
None of my family members understand my feelings as much as you do.
Whenevery they see me sad, they juz anyhow guess..
Thus when you are able to say out each and every of my feeling it really touch my heart.
Now i only have one tiny wish..
Our relation to go back to as sweet as it has started :/
