Am i holding on too tight to you that it's starting to hurt?
I can keep you with me, but your heart juz slip from my hands so easily
No matter how hard i tried, it still slips away.
There are a lot of things i ponder over again and again,
but in order to not hurt you, i chose to say "Nahhx~ i'm juz thinking too much again~"
This sentence is beginning not to help anymore :/
It used to work, but now, even if i repeat it 10times it still can't change my thoughts.
Am i being too sensitive?
Or does your act really meant something?
I so hope that what I am doing are all worthwhile.
I think of you every night before i go to bed, remembering all our memories(:
When i open my eyes in the morning, it's still you i'm thinking about(:
But do you have the same feeling as I? :(
Before you sleep, you are thinking about tml,
when you woke up, you are thinking of Fb.
It was never me you think about first...
I remember there's once, I forced myself not to msg you for the whole day..
And it ended up, you only msged me at 5pm in the noon :(
That moment, I don't know how to react.
Was i supposed to be happy that you at least bothered to msg?
Or was i supposed to feel sad that so long after you woke up then you remember me?
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Recently, I noticed that you started saying,
"If your boyf is not a nerd.. blah blahx.."
"If your boyf is not so busy.. blah blahx.."
"If I'm gone from your life.. blah blahx.."
I don't like all these hypothetical questions!!
I don't need all these hypothetical questions either!!
All i want is you, your attention and most of all your care and concern..
Not you spending time to think how i will live if you didn't step into my life!
Since you really want to know how my life will be without your existence,
I can daringly tell you, it wouldn't be any better than now.. Really..
I know i'm one who can't stand loneliness, and that i'm afraid to be lonely..
Cuz i makes me feel abandoned..
Maybe it's juz a fxcked up phobia from young, but i juz feel so.
I ask for your accompanyment cuz i don't feel secured, cuz i'm missing you ><
If my demand for attention and accompanyment makes u vex.. i'm sry..
:(
